It seems that the beginnings of any diet and exercise plan is always easy. I'm motivated that first couple of weeks and then somewhere around the 6week mark something seems to derail me. My last attempt at daily exercise and weight loss hit a plateau when my husband was diagnosed with Ulcerative Colitis and spent many sick days at home and some in the hospital. Then my son had a severe allergic to peanut butter and what followed was allergy tests and doctors appointments, oh and one trip to the emergency room. and what followed was weeks of me not even tempting to do more than just maintain (I succeeded somewhat but I gained back 3 of the 10pds that I loss.)If we are honest I think any of us could admit to a time when life just seemed to get crazy and all we could do was to try our best to maintain.
I think at some point I thought that I was failing at the whole journey thing and that Weight Watchers has become my savior but the truth of the matter is that since March the Lord has been changing the way that I think about food. He allowed me to experience a time of severe discipline to get the basics and to change my mindset so that when the plateaus hit I would keep finding a way to persevere. Weight Watchers is not my savior but it is a tool that I believe that HE is using to keep me on the right path.
While I struggled with getting back to discipline my heart had changed and I knew that with that heart change there had to be a continual life change. Change sometimes happens all at once but "inner" (is that even the write word?) changing often comes slowly with time. And everyday that I was not doing what I knew was best and what the Lord had in mind for me as good, I knew that I had to keep persevering even in the hard, lifetime, endeavors; because that is what this is, a lifetime endeavor.
I don't want to look at this as a "new beginning" but a continuous of a former process which had to change so that I could keep persevering.
A verse that comes to mind in all of this is Hebrews 12:11 "No discipline, at the moment, seems pleasant but painful. However, in the end, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it."
This has been one of the hardest processes I have ever done and I started it back in January when I first tipped the scale at 301pds(no one but my husband knew.) And I read a post that talked about honesty and I need to be honest about that. In the months that followed I lost 3pds and eventually a full 13pds but I gained back 3 and I started WW at 291.6. This has certainly been a process full of discipline but I'm okay with that now. And most importantly I am so glad that I have a Savior cheering for me every step of the way :)
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