I started this weight loss, healthy journey back in March, and since then I have lost 10pds and gained back 3. I must say I don't feel defeated by this but I came to a point where I just felt so alone in it (even though I shouldn't have) and I realized that if I was going to continue on this path I needed to have more accountability than with just myself. So I humbly went to my husband and asked if he could find a way to work Weight Watchers program into our budget. God is so good and Carl was able to work it in. :) I attended my first meeting last Saturday and all though there was no one in the meeting that I personally know I praised God for showing me that when his word says "there is nothing new under the sun" and that "No temptations has overtaken you that is not common to man" he really meant it.
I am so far loving the new WW ( you will see this a lot it means Weight Watchers) PointPlus program and it has actually been easier than just counting calories. Anyways one of the other reasons why i wanted to join was also so that this mother of 2 (babies) could find new ways of getting out into the community. I am praying that the Lord will use this to possibly allow me to reach out to others for his glory.
What I really wanted to share was this Blog Post I wrote for the WeightWatchers community board. It's a blog option that they have for when you join that allows any other WW member to read it. And at first I didn't want to come across as a Jesus Freak but then I thought "WHY NOT?" be a Jesus Freak there are good ways to do so and I'm not in this to make people like me I'm in this for God's glory. So here's a treat for you :) LOL
I have 2 beautiful children. Eleanor (2yrs) and Zachary (14months) and they both usually lay down and take a nap at the same time every afternoon. Before WW I would use their nap time to be lazy and watch t.v., sometimes i would clean, but since I have incorporated activity into my daily schedule I now just want to be more active. I want to do something other than watch t.v. and mostly because it makes me feel good.
I also know that God is pleased by me being active. I don't think that the Lord wishes anyone to be lazy but this does not mean that He is not pleased when I genuinely just need a rest. I am learning though that there is a difference between resting and being lazy and it usually lays some where in ones mindset. Resting means that we are relaxing or taking a break so that we can have the continual energy to proceed through out our day. While laziness is an act of continual choice to sit knowing that you have the capability to be doing something else and are just not choosing to do so because you don't want to.
I believe that this process is more than just a physical one but also an emotional and even spiritual one. As I face the battle of food worshiping every day I am faced with the constant awareness that I am called to more than just food. I am call to care about more than just myself and i will be honest I hate it when people say that they didn't care about themselves before they started WW. Because the truth is a person that eats and eats and eats to the point where I am at the moment (291.6pds) is not a person that doesn't care about themselves...truthfully and at the risk of criticism, it is a person that has cared too much about themselves. And I am one of the hugest examples of this. In the sense that for years I haven't cared enough about the people in my life that my choices are effecting. I was, in a way, saying "I love my food, way more than my family, friends and God. I don't really care that I can't play as long or do as much because I love having what I want when I want it." Being-dare I say it-obese has nothing to do with a lack of self love but love of self too much.
And I believe this self love is what dominates any negative habit in a persons life. I started WW because I believe that God has more for me in this life than food, fat, and lack of energy. I started this journey also because I have a beautiful family, children that I need to set examples for now so that they may not follow my sins, a husband that adores me so much that he wants to grow as old as we possibly can together. For once, by the grace that I find in salvation through my Savior, Jesus Christ. I am not loving myself more than I ought to.
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