Rembering Stones

I don't always see the blessings that God has given to me in my life. I don't always "remember" all the wonderful things that HE has done and all the things that he has brought me through. As a result of not always remembering I can grow ungrateful for the place that I am. I grow discontent, I get jealous of the blessings that God has given to others and not to me, instead of counting my blessings I count the blessings that I don't have and end up asking the question "Why not give that to me?" I am selfish, don't let my smile, sweet eyes, and at times my beautiful soul fool you...I have a self righteous, selfish, and bitter heart that God has changed and continues to change.

My husband reminded me that when we are not being grateful, content, rejoicing in God's gift to others, that it is often because we are not remembering what God has already done for us. My husband talked about the importance of the remembering stones that God had commanded the Israelite to often place at certain locations that God instituted those to help remind the Israelite of his faithfulness and goodness to them. My husband also mentioned the importance of having our own remembering stones, some people journal, some  others have memory boxes, I blog...or at least I try.

I won't be writing out all my remembrance stones at the moment, but tonight I get to go before my small group and share with them some of the stones that have been etched into my heart. I don't always look forward to sharing my stones, contrary to what people think it is very hard for me to open up my heart, there is still so much healing that hasn't fully taken place yet on old wounds...and healing hurts, it just does, but there is peace at the end of the process. Scars? Not always, mostly for me though, but definitely peace is found.  So I am going to let tonight be a time to remember what God has done for me that when I come home I will be able to praise God all the more and maybe, most likely, find peace and contentment once again.