An encouraging week

I feel as though I finally had an encouraging week after many weeks of discouragment and not because God did anything miraclous with our circumstances but just because he taught me something about myself, and about him, that I don't think I would have learned without our circumstances.

I was taking Carl to work on Wednesday and I said to him "Do you think we will need to move away again if things don't improve soon?" He said..."Maybe, I don't know..." Followed by a few seconds of a silent lesson. Finally I spoke

"I don't think God would want us to move, at least not for a long time, and not for our current reasons. Carl, all my life I've thought of it as easier to just pick up and start over again somewhere else, I've ran away from problems just to encounter the same ones someplace else, and while God has blessed all of my 'leaping moments' he has also caught me from hitting the pavement because of them. It's hard, for both of us, to not know when or even if you'll get a second job or at least one that pays more than the one you're at; but I think that God just wants us to wait on him, and waiting has never been something that I have been good at. I feel bad that you have to take part in a lesson that God is teaching me, since that lesson involves some suffering, but I am glad that God is showing me that I need to just wait, and fully surrender to him what is not mine to have."

Followed by that mini-lesson a friend of mine and I took advantage of our summer like weather that afternoon and took a 2mile walk in the park. I shared with her my lesson and other verses that God had used to encourage my heart. She shared with me a trial that she and her husband went through. She was a stay at home mom, taking care of a child, and all of her sudden her husband was laid off from his job, for 2 months they had no income...at all, and yet for 2 months God provided for them. Carl at least has a job, it may not cover all of our expenses but he has a job I can't imagine how she must have felt. However, as a result of their trial she says she doesn't typically worry about whether or not God will provide for her, because she's been through that trial already and she knows that if it were to happen again, He would provide again.

I did laundry yesterday and took care of my baby girl :) and today I get to hang out with some ladies from church. It's been a good week and I am hopeful that God will continue to make me thankful for the little things of life.