Not sure what it is

But i'm finally starting to feel "a little more with it" this week. I got the kitchen cleaned and our room cleaned. I"ve had a couple of fast food lunches..not healthy...but oh so tasty, lol. I even was able to get the insurance taken care of and the lady that helped me was really sweet and respectful...so redeeming for that office. It will still be about 2 weeks before i can get my first check up and I"ll be about 12 weeks then but it's all good :).

Carl and I are quickly approaching our 2yr anniversary. So wonderful, and also such a very FULL 2 years sometimes it feels like we've been married a lot longer...I'm just going to write that off as a good thing though. I think it means that we've finally learned to jive with one another, overcome and push through our differences, learned to respect the others opionion and both learning how to serve and love the other. We don't have it all figured out, not by any stretch, but i suppose there is something about having a child and being pregnant again all with in the first 2 years that really makes a couple put their game faces on, at least it did with us.

My days are getting more energized, when it stops raining, and i'm finally adjusted to watching two 6 month olds...just as little Faith is about to enter her last week with us. But the wonderful thing about babysitting a child that isn't ours is Carl has this new found sense and longing to eventually adopt someday...For a while he just wasn't sure if he could really take care of someone elses child and love them the same as our own...watching Faith has showed him that it is possible. This makes me happy for 2 reasons 1. I know and love a wonderful adopted girl named, Charleigh in the Ryerse household. 2...maybe it also means that I won't have to be pregnant 5 times in order to have the 5 kids that Carl would love...lol.

I'm thankful for the many prayers that have been made on my behalf this week. I really can feel the Lord's presence, peace, and even comfort in my life.

So...yeah...maybe this is what it all is after all. :)