A mixture of thoughts

This week of counseling was less intense than last week. I must say that i was very glad for that...I didn't spend the whole time crying even when i was confronted with sins that I still need to be working on. I think there is a part of me that would love to be declared "done." But counseling takes time and a lot of it..as well as work. I need to do the work as well as put in the time.

Something my counselor said to me after only 2 conversations with her was..."Sara, i think you've been living in a lot of fear for a long time..." So very true, so very true. I truly hope that I will stop.

Today was one of those 'blah' days for me. While i was taking Carl to work i told him that my heart was heavy and that it was going to be a day of battle for me...and it was. But thankfully through time with the Lord, and encouragement from my husband so far I've made it through without eating the entire pan of brownies i made last night...but i've been tempted to do it all day. The day is not over yet...the battle has yet to be won but since it has come I know that i can endure it.

As my thoughts and perspectives on life have begun to switch I feel as though I am gaining new friends and losing old ones. I'm reminded of something Amy told me once..."God uses different people during different seasons" That perspective has helped me to not feel so sad about it but i am... i really am.

My dad may be moving out this Sunday...Carl and I are praying and asking for wisdom. We'll see what the Lord has instored for my dad and for us...it will be a whole other adventure since i haven't lived in the same house as my dad since I was a teenager. We'll see...we'll see. I trust that the Lord knows what will be best for us all.