Learning lessons

Busy, busy, busy, and then not so busy... is the phrase that i would use to describe my life right now.

Carl and I spent the weekend together shopping around for tuxes and or suits for the groomsmen as well as just running a few errands and looking at some gift registry options. He, Carl, also took me out on a date Saturday evening to downtown Fredrick where they had some live music playing. We enjoyed looking through a big Antique store that Vanessa would just love!!!!and i mean LOVE...And then we got some delicious ice-cream from Ben and Jerry's...it was GREAT!

I spent the majority of last week adjusting to sleeping in a new place, my sleep hasn't been so good since i got here. I have a very hard time sleeping through an entire night...i think it has a lot to do with the things that are running through my head.

This week i will be working on getting some more wedding supplies together, we finally picked out some invitations that i will work on putting together next week while my future mother in law is on vacation in Ohio. I will also begin to search around for some jobs...ect..and hopefully i will be able to find a job that suits me well, pays well, and will let me work the kind of hours that i need/ want to work...

I am enjoying Maryland and it is very different from the world NWA it isn't quite my home yet and i still refer to Daisy as my roommate when talking about her.

It's been a struggle to adjust but it's been great to see Carl for a short amount of time everyday and for long amounts of time on the weekend. We both look forward to our honeymoon a lot and not just because of the obvious reasons but just because we get to spend a whole week just to be together...and we need that...we need that a lot.

As far as my relationship with Carl...it certainly is growing and we are learning how to love and serve each other more. Being so far apart for so long the dynamics of our relationship were very different then and now that we aren't so far apart we have to reform those dynamics all over again, get used to one another on every level and we are learning how to selflessly intertwine our lives together. That last step is hard...sometimes what i need in a moment isn't necessarily something that Carl can give to me and not because he doesn't want to but just because he can't, for the good of our relationship with each other and for the good of our relationship with our Maker.

I won't lie, Carl and I are under some obvious stress and tension, and both of us are just to the point where we just want to get married and just get on with the rest of our lives...

However, neither of us want to rush the goodness that comes in the stage that we are in, the growth and the love that is built, the trust and the confidence, the understanding of a good and gracious God who gives us great things all in his great timing.

So, we'll push through and we'll get through this and, to borrow a piece of marital counseling wisdom from Robb, when it is time for us to unite in every way...how much greater that will be because we didn't get what we wanted right away....great things are even greater when you have to wait for them :)