"I still haven't found what I"m looking for"

So, i have completed 2 full weeks in Maryland and i still haven't unpacked my room...lol. Seriously it's a mess, i hope my future in laws don't think I'm a slob...lol.

This past weekend Carl and I picked out the Tuxedo's for the wedding, we shopped for apartments and looked at a house. We also started to Register for the wedding at Target, and we will also Register at Walmart as soon as we get some time.

We are leaning more to an apartment simply for some logistical reasons as of now. So far we have discovered that prices for renting are over a small mortgage on a house in other areas of the country. We are between two different choices...one place is extremely small but will allow us to paint another place is huge but no painting allowed...oh the differences a few dollars will make...lol.

I am continuously in a growing process...and i think that I've been in a bit of small depression...don't ask me how it's possible but taking into consideration the 5 major stresses that can lead to depression and the fact that i have 3 out of those 5 it isn't completely surprising either. (Can you list what those 5 things are?) All i know is that i've cried a lot and my future Mom-in-law has helped me work through some of those things.

I am still getting used to Mosaic all though for the past two Sundays the Intro into the Pastor's Sermons had a U2 song playing...this may not be the title but it's apart of the chorus..."I still haven't found what I'm looking for..." How true are those words. I think this will be a good community to be apart of I just don't know any of the people yet...which makes moving and adjusting very hard sometimes as many of you fully understand.

Well this is that, and that is all there is to it...and it...is just this...ect..

love ya all