1yr - 1yr1/2

Every once in a while i like to read over my past blogs from years past to help me remember the areas i've grown in and to look back and see where God has taken me.

A year ago I was still in college preparing to graduate wondering if i would really move to Arkansas.

A year and 1/2 ago i really liked someone who wasn't Carl and went through a very difficult process of 'getting over him yet realizing how God had used one person to help dramatically make me the person i am today.

A year 1/2 ago i found out that Robb and Vanessa were leaving Michigan and i remember feeling so confused because they were my family and i couldn't understand why God would once again be taking out of my life the only people i truly felt loved by.

A year 1/2 ago i also found myself driving in the rain to go visit them 'one last time' and in the process i drove into a ditch, left my purse in a strangers vehicle, ran out of minutes on my trac-phone, had no cash for gas, and had only a phone card which i used standing out in the pouring ran as i tried to call and ask others for help. (That was quite a bad day...lol)

In the past year i also found myself wrestling with God, wanting to drop out of college, wanting to throw away everything that i had persevered for. I have felt the pain of loneliness, loss, and confusion. I have been driven to my knees in the woods and fallen asleep on a log and I know what it is like to litterally lay in bed for days on end not wanting to do anything.

But as hard as some of those moments had been for me in the last year God did a tremendous work in my life. I learned during those difficult times what Beauty really is. I learned more deeper about a love that is stronger than any man's love could be fore me. I learned about grace and forgiveness, and finding strength during our weakest times.

I am also here in Arkansas now with 'my family' learning a little bit more about pursuing grand adventures with hope, faith, and love.

So God has been so good to me...