About a month ago i learned that someone i was interested had actually been interested in me as well. But both of us waited too long to say something and now we both know there isn't supposed to be anything more.
I'm still not quite over that experience yet. I thought that if there would have been one person that would have fought for me it would have been this person but i guess i was wrong. And that still hurts. I know that God has a bigger plan for my life and if i am to indeed ever be married he'll bring in even a better person. But that knowledge doesn't always comfort my pain now.
Why is it that we get so afraid to love that we would rather not love at all? Does anyone truly believe anymore that...
"It is better to have loved and lost than to not have loved at all."
I hope that i will heal from this heartache soon and that God will be willing to teach me some grand things about him through it...but I won't lie..I'm still not quite over it yet.
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Oh and in case those of you are wondering about Brad, we did go out on a date and it wasn't bad at all...but i think as Brad and i get to know each other more we both want different things in life..so I don't think thats going any farther..lol
It was worth a shot though..
I think i'm done with the whole dating scene for a while.
wow...you are ending it already? I guess I'm not surprised in some ways, but I am a little surprised in other ways. Will you still be friends?
I'm not sure...
Brad is really a great guy but he is definately looking for Mrs. Right, and someone who is planning on staying in the south, you know, being the southern mother who cooks and cleans.
I'm not opposed to those things but i'm definatelly looking for a life in ministry and he really isn't.
I really thought about some things that you told me when you were dating Rob. You knew what you needed and what you wanted to do and Rob was the guy that it was going to help you get in those directions.
I guess i don't see the point of dangling it on longer and waiting until one of us falls hard and the other one gets heart broken. I don't want to be a heart breaker.
And yeah,
I really do think i'm done with the whole dating scene for a while. Its a little too weird for me at the moment and I have other issues that are more important to work on than finding someone to date..lol
yeah...i still get mad at myself for dating so many stupid guys!!! what was i thinking? i most certainly did not get much wisdom in the whole field of relationships...if you are stepping back from it...i say, way to go!
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