I shall not forget

I feel kind of un-patriotic tonight because the entire ryerse household has gone to a patriotic event at the kids school to remember September 11, 2001, and I have chosen to stay home.

I guess some of that has to do with the fact that I had a long day of work and at the moment just feel like sitting on my keaster, something i haven't done a lot of today. Yet at the same time..part of me is just not ready.

I have a hard time doing anything patriotic and not finding myself bawling at the end..I mean seriously bawling, we're talking taking gasps of air I'm crying so hard. I guess i feel as though i don't need to go to a public event to remember. I think thats okay...someday i will but right now it just hurts to re-live something that happened not so long ago.

I remember that day all to vividly. I remember what i was doing that morning, before i heard the news. I remember what i was doing when i heard the news and i remember the incredible sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach when i realized that so many people died that day on our soil for very bad reasons.

I will not forget...