He meets us where we are.

As i have read different blogs my heart aches for some of you. Believe it or not I cry for you in my prayers and I ask God why isn't he doing anything for people who have given up so much to walk into the wilderness to find the promise land.

I often feel as though God is committing a terrible injustice against his children who are trying to be so faithful to him and in those moments when i don't think it is fair and i don't think that he is working hard enough or fast enough and i feel as if maybe he really is just a God who started the world and then took his hands off ot it..in those moments he whispers back to me..."Are you God?"

Do i have the ability to know everything, to forsee hardships or what hardships might come if things were done my way according to my time? Do i know what kind of lessons i would have never learned if i certain things would not have ever happended. Would i know how to love? Would i miss out on a deeper relationship with a friend? Would i have ever gone to college? I think about if my grandmother was still alive how much my life would be different but would i have ever gotten saved? Would I have ever developed a deep relationship beyond that of just a Pastor and his wife with Rob and Vanessa if she was still here.
Would i have ever learned selflessness?

What things have you guys learned to be true about God and would you have ever learned those if God gave you something right away when you asked for it? I ask God for my family's salvation almost every day if not more than once a day...sometimes i get sick of asking because nothing seems to be happening but do i really know what God does in a persons heart? If God had saved my family years ago within the first few months of my salvation would i have ever developed a heart for the lost, hurting and lonely?

Everything done or not done seems to be apart of God shaping us more and more into the image of HIS son. It is hard to at times see how God is good when we find ourselves standing in front of the window shop asking for the beautiful thing inside and God seems to be saying come on we're going in this store...we feel as if he is handing us hand-me-down clothes when we know he is capable of giving us the Gap, Old Navy, or the Burlington Coat factory. We feel as if we are at yard sales and only seeing $0.10 of his wealth...so we ask for more...but he doesn't give us what we want because he knows what we are capable of handling without getting to puffed up, proud, and show offish , with out us saying to others..."see, what i got...oh you've only got that..oh, i'm so sorry." to somebody else.

But those of you who are parents don't you know what is best for your small children? And while it may break your heart at times because you would like to give them what they are asking for but you can't aren't you able to look at them and say, but they have clothes there not running around naked at school, they may not have a lot of food but they aren't "i can see their bones" skinny. Applying that now to when you can give them what they want and you choose not to 'like those 5 candy bars right before dinner" because you know it is garbage even though it is pleasurable.

God isn't a meany, i need to realize that...he just knows what we need and he knows exactly what we need to get us closer to where we need be...he doesn't do things all at once...everyday he meets us where we are and takes us one step closer to where we need to be?

Things on those steps just might not be that next step coming...but it doesn't mean it isn't coming?

Now probably nobody will read this blog and my hope of encouragement will just go unnoticed.....or it won't be encouraging at all i'm just sharing what i've learned in the past couple of weeks....

"Everyday God meets us where we are and takes us one step closer to where we need to be."