I have really been praising God lately for all the wonderful people that he has brought into my life to help teach me something about myself, and most importantly about the kind of woman He wants me to be.
I had an enjoyable weekend at my friend Dan's house...his sister invited me to her baby shower so i went to his house for the weekend and then to Cortland for church. Normally, when i go to someone house for the first time, i feel real awkward and i'm not quite sure what to do with myself..but that wasn't the case this weekend. I actually felt right at home as if i had known everybody in the family for years. It was great being able to carry on different conversations and to not have to change who i am to try to impress anybody..i was just completly and naturally myself for once and it was great.
It has been incredible to see God just change me and mold me, and it has been even a more blessing to feel for once "Comfortable in my own skin."
I am learning a lot about myself through different friendships, like Dan's, and realizing that I am who i am and i can't expect to be something that i am not.
I have a long ways to go yet and a lot more to learn but step by step i'm becoming that woman i've always been inside and i'm just starting to let her shine through.
That is definately something else that i have noticed...i no longer call myself a girl...because i no longer veiw myself as a girl.
When i think of the word girl i think of someone who has yet to mature, who is caught up what everyone else thinks and who has yet to establish herself as an individual...When i think of the word Woman, i think of someone who will always continue to mature but who is not stuck on boys, I think of someone who is 'comfortable' with who they are and yet striving to be that person God intends them to be. When i think of the word 'woman' i think of my friends, Vanessa, Shirly, Faye, Melissa, Amy, Donna, and slowly but surely i am adding my name to that title.
I am so thankful that God does not always give us what we ask when we ask it, but he knows our deepest desires and prepares us for the fulfilment of those desires so that when he gives them to us we can truly glorify and praise his name.
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it's so freeing to come to a place where you can see yourself the way God intended...not the way our culture demands! i have struggled so much at times with that very thing...comparing and feeling insufficient as a "beautiful" person. but i'm realizing that my whole view of beauty really has been distorted by what i've been told beauty is by the world. i just have to keep reminding myself of that : ) i am excited to see how you are growing, sara!
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