It has been so long since I have posted anything on this blog. I probably don't have many readers but if you are still there I wanted to ask for prayer.
Lately my husband and I have had huge desires, and almost burdened by these desires, placed on our hearts. Specifically in the area of adoption, or foster care. We are not sure of what either of those will look like for our family or how it will unfold but we have a MAJOR hurdle that needs to be overcome if we are ever to start pursuing either of those things. The hurdle is this we have four people living in a 2 bedroom apartment. I know for sure that in Indiana you have to have so much square footage to a house and the child has to be able to have a "space" for themselves (not necessarily a room but a space.) This usually includes their own dresser and a bed. We do not even have room for our own 2 children to have their own dressers even if we were to clear out toys ect we still would probably not have enough space. I am unsure whether or not this same rule applies to adoption. I also do not think that there is a requirement to own your own home but just that you have to established a place of residency.
We realize that the process to adoption and even foster care can be long and hard but we are discouraged by the fact that as of right now we can't even begin either knowing that it would probably prove to be fruitless. In the mean time we give, we give our money, we give our time, and we give ourselves to prayer on the behalf of others though we probably do not do any of this nearly as much as we could.
What we, what I am asking, is that you would pray that God will do what seems like a miracle in the economy we have here (although our economy is still far better off than many countries) and either give my husband a better job either through a promotion through his current company or with another company. This, we think, we allows us to afford to live in a bigger place and at least begin the steps of either adoption or foster care.
I know that my God is a big God and I have been feeling convicted of the fact that for so long I haven't allowed myself to dream of big things that the Lord my have us to do for him. Mostly because big things seem impossible when you are sinful human being and so much of yourself can get in the way. And also because I honestly haven't thought that God would actually be there walking with me through it. I have been challenged by other blogs, by friends, by books and by my husband that this should not be a mentality that Christians have. I have much to not be despairing and depressed about and I will likely not be apart of sharing God's glory if I don't even try (not that God needs my help in spreading his glory but he does give me the privilege.)
So I decided to be brave and to ask for prayer that you would pray that God would make the first steps seem reachable to us by allowing us to get a bigger place. Carl has applied for several manager positions within his company. Pray that the Lord will give him one of them. Pray that even though the process will probably be a slow one, as I am sure once we had a bigger place we would have to live there for so long, that the desire to adopt internationally or through foster care would only grow. Pray that God would do the impossible and make it happen even if we don't think it can. Pray that God would use this waiting time to grow our hearts to be more like his heart so that we would not give up when things got tough. And if you know of recourses or the first steps that we could take into finding out more about adopting feel free to email me or post them.
Please forgive my thoughts they seem to be so scrambled but I wanted to share what the Lord has laid on my heart and I wanted to ask for pray. I have been reading a book by Philip Yancey titled PRAYER and the Lord has used it to give my own heart a renewed sense of why I should be praying and why I should ask others to pray. So here I am asking that you pray with me for God to do what seems impossible in our lives.