My motivation

Wow! This has been quite a week for me... I have hosted a women bible study, I have been to a birthday party, I have cleaned multiple rooms of my house, taken children to the doctors, had the water shut off (repairs), made dinners, changed many poopy diapers, and managed to get in a good work out.

The last of these was actually hard for me to do. Somedays I love working out, it makes me feel so good, full of energy, spirit, life, and other days (usually when I have not gotten enough  sleep) the very thought of it drains me...lol. Thankfully my workout paid off and I feel a bit more energized.

My week with eating well started off a little uneasy. I didn't make the best food choices over the weekend and I have had to remind myself of the reasons why I have even taken on such a task of trying to lose 100+pds. So here's a brief reminder to myself of why I am doing this.

It was back in January when my husband and I were going out on a much needed date. We were on the way to a restaurant we had never been to before, we had a great coupon, and we were going to use it. On the way there I noticed how thrilled my husband was that we were alone, together, no kids. He was chatting up a storm, laughing, flirting, having a great time with me. I on the other hand felt very uneasy, anxious, sad even...As we were driving I tried so hard to figure out what I was so upset about, why I wasn't enjoying our time together. Then it hit me, the moment, that really made me face myself...I realized that I was worried that this new restaurant wasn't going to have food that I would actually like.  I burst into tears, prompting my husband to bewilderingly ask "Sara, what's wrong? What has made you so upset? Did I say something that hurt your feelings?" I, through, my sobs said..."Oh Dear, it's so not you, it's me............I.......... I care more about food than I do about you....." That was when I realized I had to change

I made a decision that night to not let an idol control my thoughts and feelings any longer...and yet I still face these days when I want something so bad its so hard for me to say no. I don't think there is anything wrong with having a little of something every now and then, but I've had my fair share of treats this week and I don't need any more of them....So today, when temptation seem to be all around me, and the thoughts of certain foods are raging through my mind..I think of my husband whom has loved me just the way that I am ever since we met. I think of my children whom I desire to play with as they continue to grow and charm their ways even more into my heart. I think of my God who has freed me and has said that I can be victorious. I think of all the people that have said they would give a non perishable food item for every pound I lose and help feed the hungry.  Today, I remember the things that motivate me most.