Love that changes :)

Christmas makes me feel alive :)

There is something about reflecting on God's love for us that transforms me from feeling sad/blue, to joyful and blessed. I think that in the midst of our consumeristic culture I can too easily get caught up in the things that don't last, and forget about the thing that does.

When I was a new Christian I had so much joy even though my life was so full of loneliness, poverty, and the sorts. But I had joy, joy that surprised all those close to me. I had so much joy that my father would get comments from others in town about how happy I was all the time.

I was so joyful, so happy, because I knew then what at times I forget now. I knew the power of Love. Love changed my world, and not just any love but the Love of God, Jesus!

I was worthless in my eyes, and in the eyes of many, but not to God, not to Jesus. I had been forgiven, I had been loved by them for so many years and just didn't know it. How powerful is the love of God... It transformed my life then....not the circumstances of my life, but how I walked through life....

Well, Christmas time reminds me more of that time when Jesus had stepped into my life for the first time. I am humbled looking back, and I pray that I will remember and reflect on God's love through out the rest of this year and next.

I think that as 2010 ends, and 2011 begins and comes, that God has big plans for my little family. I can sense it... I don't know what he has instore, maybe he'll bless us financially so we can move into someplace bigger and begin an adoption process, maybe my husband will finally get to take a class a seminary, maybe our marriage will just blossom, and our children will continue to grow , maybe it will be a bigger growth in our relationship with HIM, that I pray for most, I may not know for sure, and I know that I can dream, but whatever it is I know that it will be good for He is good.