Dear Friends,
Today was a day where I spent most of the afternoon crying. Crying and worrying about things that I just shouldn't worry about. And I spent a good portion of that time just being sinful. I hate these days. These days where I'm so frustrated that I want to and end up blaming the person closest to me instead of just trusting God and finding peace in who He is and not in my circumstances.
It was a day where I failed hard at being the kind of woman that God wants me to be and that I want to be.
A day where I've struggled to not feel hopeless.
Yes, I'm 9months pregnant
Yes, i'm twice as big with this pregnancy than I was with Ellie
Yes, I have a 1yr old
Yes, I just moved to another state
Yes, it all seems completely understandable why i would feel stressed and be over emotional and could easily go off on my husband like it was all his fault.
But I don't want my circumstances to determine the person that I am. My circumstances do not have to define my character, my passion, or my desires, or even my actions.
I am feeling weak and I need prayer. And I need scripture and since I am so weak that I have trouble picking up my bible and seeking comfort for myself would you know of anything at the top of your head that helps you to stop in the middle of your circumstances and allows you to just breath again. Something that reminds you of the hope you have and gives you enough strength to keep on pressing on?
2 comments:
"I thank my God upon every remembrance of you, 4 always in every prayer of mine making request for you all with joy, 5 for your fellowship in the gospel from the first day until now, 6 being confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ."
Phil 1: 3-6
thanks for leaving me a comment babe :) Surprisingly this wasn't a verse I expected to see. But it is good and very true which is what my heart needs.
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