It may only be a feeling but it's a strong one lately

I've been feeling really ugly lately...and I know that's not true but i just feel that way. I'll put make up on and sometimes feel worse or worse yet just feel fake, i'll do my hair, or try to find nice clothing to wear...and I still just feel ugly.

I think the feeling of ugliness for a woman tends to bewilder her husband, at least it does mine. My husband looks at me and says "you look beautiful" and I laugh in my heart because I'm thinking "what glasses are you looking through?" But to him I really do look beautiful.

I'm not sure but maybe I just need a date or need my haircut, or dyed or something pretty to unwrap for Christmas...

I should go I think my 9month old is eating paper or opening a christmas present...