Honest Scrap

My friend Amy gave me an Honest Scrap award. I have been so thankful to be able to grow and learn from her throughout the last, what has it been, 5 years? Anyways, she included me in a list of other blogs, this might sound silly but it makes me feel special as I often think I really don't contribute anything of real value on my blog most days. Anyways, I have to share with you 10 honest things about myself.

1.) Making these types of lists is actually very hard for me to do as I'm still trying to figure out who I am and who I want be.

2.) I'm so thankful that my husband finally was given a 2nd job to help pay the monthly bills, but I also find myself struggling with worry that we won't have time, or will be too exhausted, to be with one another not just emotionally but physically as well. I guess we're learning a whole other aspect of loving one another in marriage even when there is 'no time.'

3.) I'm afraid that the next child we are having is going to be a boy. I'm a little intimidated to have a baby boy. Are boys really all that great? From what I've observed is they sleep less, cry more, super rambunctious when toddlers, try to kill themselves by doing crazy stunts when they're older. But then again maybe they are just another human being a little different from that of my baby girl.

4.) I think that I've been extremely spoiled as a first time parent with my baby girl. She started to sleep 6-7hours at night at just 4weeks old, slept 12hours at night at 6 weeks old, takes regular naps, isn't an extremely messy eater (at least not yet.) Plays well by herself and is very healthy. Still sleeps 12hours at night, only wakes up in the middle of the night about 1 a month and usually due to gas, but always goes right back to sleep on her own.

5.) I rarely get extremely lonely anymore. I'm not entirely sure why that is as its not as though I am constantly talking to people all day long. I guess I try to stay busy and lose myself in the busyness and when it's the end of the day and I'm all alone,I'm too tired to feel lonely or sorry for myself.

6.) I long to find a creative side of me. I would love to do crafts, scrap booking etc but lack the money to invest in supplies and sometimes I just plain lack the motivation.

7.) I've struggled with laziness most of my life, I'm finally getting to a point where I no longer let my flaw control me. Doesn't mean I always win, just means it doesn't control me like it did not to long ago.

8.) I miss my friends in New York, and I miss my friends in Arkansas, I miss my friends in Michigan and find myself wondering and praying about when I'll get to see any of them again.

9.) I've never really thought of myself as having a mother, not since my grandma died. My "mom" is still alive but she has no involvement in my life and doesn't really act like she wants it. I often worry that I won't feel anything when she dies and that makes me sad.

10.) I actually love photography and would love to have a really nice camera someday so that I can take some really great pictures. I already use my little camera to try do creative things.

Now for the other rules of the award...

Must share who gave the award, list their blog and thank them (Thanks Amy)
Must share 10 honest things about yourself (already done)
Give the award to 7 others who encourage you and share the guidelines with them

So....I don't have 7 blogs to list but I do have 4 and 3 of those have already been given the award but it will still be nice to get it again...I think?

Vanessa's Butterfly, I always enjoy catching up with my friend/mentor. She and her family mean more to me than they could possibly ever know or imagine. Where would I be in life without the Ryerse's?

Tiffany's Moments. I started to regularly read Tiffany's blog not too long ago. I find it an encouragement to go to her site and read about how she has experienced God in an ordinary life. I often find it as an inspiration to seek to make everyday count for something.

Amy's heart. What can I say, Amy is a creative and wonderful woman that understands my 'tomboy' ways. She knows what its like to be a woman that well doesn't always like all the things that other women like, but also strives to embrace her feminine side. She has definitely been an example to me that no matter how much of a 'tomboy' you may have grown up as you can still learn to embrace and appreciate being the woman that God made you.

Elizabeth's Laughter. My friend Elizabeth doesn't always get a chance to blog that often but I still regularly check for updates as I find her post creative and encouraging as she shares the things that God has and is teaching her about life, family, marriage, and HIM.