Learning to balance...

The last 3 1/2 weeks have been absolutely wonderful and exhausting at the same time. There is certainly something about learning how to balance all the roles that God has given to me.

Monday I was completely feeling overwhelmed as I sat on the couch feeding my daughter while at the same time looking at the mess that had become my house. As I told Carl, I don't mind "letting the house go" to some extent but even I, a non-neat freak, have my limits and the house had reached them. I didn't know what to do though as Ellie had been extremely fussy that day due to bowel movements that needed to come but weren't. I was tired and hungry and didn't even have a free moment to fix myself lunch.

Thankfully I have a wonderful husband that realized he needed to bring me some lunch and a really great friend that I called who was willing to come over and comfort Ellie while I tackled the house. She did offer it to be the other way around but honestly I wanted/needed a little break from my beautiful girl.

Then yesterday Ellie and I began to tackle teaching her to fall a sleep without being held to sleep. Which was a challenge...It's a lot easier at times to hold a baby to sleep than to listen to them cry especially when I want to try to sleep myself. Thankfully after a day of trial and error I think Ellie and I have finally struck a balance.

Then there is also the spiritual aspect of life as well. It has become so easy for me to set aside tending to my relationship with God. I'm sure that he understands the chaos of being new parents but i've noticed that the less time I spend with him in even just communicating through prayer the more irritable and impatient I become.

I was greatly humbled this morning through prayer when i rememberd that I still sin a lot. And my sins may be "settle" sins but they really effect my household and my attitude. I've just been praying that God would turn my heart and eyes back to him as I struggle with how imperfect I am and that I'll remember that He loves me. He sent Jesus to die for my sins, he has made me perfectly righteous and because of that I can continue to do good and I can be strengthend by his grace.