I am cranky and in tears today. I'm ready to move on with the next chapter of my life but this one at the moment seems like it's never ending. I'm trying to keep a postive attitude and "soak" up every moment i get alone with Carl and myself. But i think i've reached a point now where I'm ready to move on and start with a different challenging adventure.
I've done all the nesting I can think of, the baby/guest room is ready, the bathroom is fit to have a King eat of the floor, the refrigerator is cleaned, dishes done, laundry caught up, and even the dusting is finished. And now i find myself getting discouraged because as we all know, the bathroom doesn't stay clean, the refrigerator eventually fills up again, there's always more dishes to do, laundry piles up eventually and dust doesn't stay away for long. So, I get discouraged because I get it done and I say "Okay Ellie, come now for mom." And sure enough she doesn't come.
I'm trying to keep myself busy by taking others advice and treating myself to phone conversations with friends, and warm bubble baths. But truth is I still get so bored. I read, I blog, I even take myself for a walk. I've even considered raking the lawn...truth is I just want to get out of the house, go out to eat, laugh, cry, play a little bit. But having friends who are super busy, not having a car, and a husband that by God's wonderful grace works 60+ hours a week. I just feel at a lost.
I know that someday I will long to have this much free time again and that's why i'm trying to enjoy it, but I still can't seem to help but cry.
Maybe Carl will make 4 sales today and he can come home early and take me out. I love that man.
3 comments:
now THAT's the misery of a 10 month pregnant woman....
read up about cod liver oil first, but you can find it a drug store or Walmart. Kids used to have to take it whenever they got sick in the old days.
hang in there, kiddo.
At least you don't have a church full of people patting your tummy and saying "Are you still here?"
As I recall, with both kids, Robb and I got into big ol' fights just before things got rolling.
Any time now....
BLUEBERRY Pie worked for me...and that very long bumpy road along the dirt roads of Gratiot County.
Carl's afraid that he's going to go broke, cause all i've wanted to do is go out, go out, go out...lol.
He's been sweet though :) and has found alternative things for us to do other than spend money. But i think if I had a lot of it right now, i would probably just do a ton of shopping.
Thanks for the encouragement :)
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