So, I went to David's Bridal with Vanessa and Daisy today and we found "THE DRESS!" just to realize at lunch time that "the dress" is way out of the limits of my budget.
I won't lie, it was very disheartening, there is that part of me that got really upset, angry and almost bitter at God asking him why i didn't have a family to help me with such a wonderful endeavour. There was that part of me that just felt selfish, and vain, and sinful for even wanting such a dress in the first place...
So i was torn in my emotions this afternoon. Crying here, wondering there, staying strong, moving forward, just to start the vicious cycle over again.
There's that part of me that just feels stupid for caring so much about something that I will only wear one time. But I care...
So God and i had a little chat where he gently reminded me that my dress isn't going to determine whether or not i still get to marry the most wonderful man that i know. My dress isn't going to determine the rest of my life and that infact, it is indeed, just one dress.
God reminded me to keep trusting him, that he still loves me as my father and that he wants to give me 'good' and beautiful dress, he just might have something else in mind. So, while my fiance and i continue to plan...i'll just wait on the dress for now.
I think i'm done with dress shopping for a little while...i'll take some time and seperate myself from the emotional attachment that i made with the dress and when i'm ready to move forward and move on and find something with in 'the range' then i'll return to hunt for "the other dress."
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Hey - there's hope in finding your "perfect" dress. I found mine at Bride & Groom in Springdale on the sale rack at a great price and took it home that day. :)
Congratulations on your engagement, I'm so happy for you!! Do you have a date yet?
~Jaye T.
Yeah, i'm feeling hopeful once again :)
oh hon...it really is a dress..and once you have the one you buy..it becomes yours..and you attach to it..THEN SELL IT on EBAY!!!..I have one in the garage from 1981--and yah..a different GUY!! LOL. has a BEAUTIFUL Veil tho--With a KIck ass train.
For one of my weddings (blush)...We went to Joann's got a headdress and lace..and made one for 15 bucks. It was ever so nice...and inexpensive.
let's see...hmmm, i spend a MAJOR amount of money on a stuning wedding dress four years ago when i was engaged to Scott. then it all ended...and trust me...it broke my heart to have that beautiful wedding dress sitting in a closet reminding me of miserable times and of broken dreams.
then i met luke. and believe it or not, i wore the dress. trust me, i would have liked to pick a new one out...rather than wear a dress i bought for a different man. but it IS just a dress...and sometimes we have to realize life isn't actually all about that one day.
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