Feeling not so HOT...

Watched the Ryerse kids last night and had a blast swimming and watching a movie...it was good. It was my first swim of the summer... i guess that makes it officially summer for me now.

Went swimming again with Daisy today at the pool here at the apartments not as much fun because the pool was filled with strangers...but still wasn't bad. I must admit I'm a little self-conscious about 'baring all' in a swim suite..or at least more than i normally bare to the public.

I'm feeling a little more self conscious about my physical physic with getting married in 4 months down the road. A part of me just wants to work out tremendously hard but the truth be told i know that there's no way i would look the way i would like to look in just a four month period...

Thought about a better diet but I'm poor and don't buy the food around here...so i just eat less and try to exercise a little more but that doesn't seem to be helping any...

I know that my man loves me just the way that i am but sometimes i just wished that i could look better for him. I try to look better for him...

Again we women find that constant battling ground of self image. We see the media and what they tell us hot and sexy is and then we compare ourselves in the mirror and say "well that's definitely not hot" and "where does the sexy belong in that..." and we're left trying to fit an image that only airbrushes can make. In the end we feel insecure and undesirable...

So we do our best to try to listen to the 'man' in our lives but let's be honest sometimes they can praise us all they want to and we still feel sad because we don't look like the woman who just had plastic surgery.

I must say...I've been blessed...my man does like me just as i am and find me stunning when i wear a dress...I never wore a dress unless i absolutely had to until i met Carl...he makes me want to wear a dress...

I guess then my challenge is this, most of us woman feel insecure and unbeautiful a good portion of our day at times but we often have a man telling us how beautiful he thinks we are...why don't we take comfort and confidence in that...Why don't we trust what he has to say a little bit more than what we 'feel' like...

Beauty is definitely more than just skin deep...it is fleeting and it fades and someday we will all be old, wrinkled and not any where close to the media's 'hot and sexy' label....

So let's trust what the Bible has to say about Beauty and let''s trust that man in our lives and what he has to say..and men...tell that woman in your life how 'hot and sexy she is' it will go along way i bet...