So we had a membership meeting for Vintage today and I guess i had already assumed that i was a member considering that i gave up my former plans for life to come down here and be a part of this Amazing NorthWest Arakansas church but none the less i still signed the dotted line.
It was good to be reminded of the core values and the message and the vision of a church that i had long ago comitted myself to being a part of but it was also eye opening particularily when Aaron said that Vintage is what he wanted to be his 'life's work.'
As a 23 yr old trying to figure out her 'place in this world' and even her role in a smaller scale at a local chruch plant I was once again plagued with another question to consider while i am still in the growing disciple process. What do i want my life's work to be?
The 'guys' (as i have so lovingly come to refer to them as) talked about wanting to help us do what we as individuals are most passionate about in ministry and wanting to develop leaders i thought about Vintage's values and the things that Aaron and Robb talked about i couldn't help but ask another question what can i lead in....am i even a leader at all? And i just don't know if i have what it takes to lead anything.
I'm not trying to be self-bashing and whatever but i think about the things that make a good leader and i'm not sure that i have those qualities. I don't know what my'niche' in minstry is and i know that Vanessa and i have talked about the fact that not finding a 'niche' or necessarily having one can be a very good thing, but when your as young as i am and and little experienced looking for your place in the world. Not finding your 'niche' in any area of your life really leaves one feeling completely lost at times.
Sometimes i really dislike the fact that i am a very reflective person and i am constantly seeking to grow and change personally (thats a good thing i know) but it leaves me feeling very restless at times.
2 comments:
Your niche is going to be nicely defined by who cuddles up to you.
seriously....who the heck would I be without Robb?
You are a leader...I was watching you yesterday...even without having the teaching gig you were setting up and tearing down...making things happen that needed to happen. Your role is going to morph again in the next few weeks.
You're Elasty Girl.
I think the more appropriate thought would be whether you are a servant. We are to be like Christ...and Christ didn't give his disciples a bunch of ways that they should be leaders...he just served them.
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