This past week has been stressful. Mostly, i think, it is due to the recent changes in life...from going to production to QC person at Pel Freeze to choosing to wait for something more to eventually come with another area of life.

As stressful as it has been to wake up every morning at 3:00 am from vivid dreams that range anywhere to anime-destroyed relationships it has also been a very good week. By Thursday night around 12:00 am I finally just talked to God about everything. Everything that i had been feeling all week long and I remembered as i just sat in his presence that there are things in life that we can control and other things in life that we can't. Instead of worrying about the things i can't control like the stress in my new position I'll work on finding ways to make my work day more pleasantly enjoyable.

I'm going to Fellowship tonight all by myself, again. But i'm looking forward to some much needed time with God. Tomorrow at Vintage a video testimony of mine is being played and its always nerve-racking to see yourself on video but i believe that maybe it will help someone who might show up who wonders ...who could possibly love them.

Overall, I'm still hanging on it will be another month or so before i can finally get an accurate view on my budget...but i'm looking forward to spending Christmas over at the Ryerse and with my new roommate. ---Oh, just so everyone knows if i die Vanessa's the beneficiary to all that hidden money i've got so feel free to ask her for some if need be...(but only if i die...i'm worth more dead than alive...lol.)