Happy Easter

I will be honest,this year's Easter at first just felt as if it was another Sunday...with the same sunday routine except the fact that everyone comes to church 'superbly' dressed. This feeling of 'routine' of 'church' made me sad because if it was one thing that i did not wish to experience that other much more aged christians have experienced, is a loss of excitement for God....

Sometimes, i don't feel like worshipping ( i know that is a terrible thing for me to say but a very honest thing.) And sometimes on Sundays i would just like to stay in bed and take a morning of quietness without rush and chaos from trying to get someplace on time. I know that these kind of sundays are not wrong but i feel guilty if i take them. I have more responsibilty now at church and i can't just take a 'day off.' But i must say i miss worshipping God with all my heart in church, i miss wandering what i will hear about the next sunday, i miss the awe and wonder of what people i will meet and who i will get to share the story of his glory in my life...i miss the excitement, i miss the joyful singing and i miss not being able to control myself from swaying to the whatever kind of music is playing.

That said i think about leaving BBC and the worship which we experience here...and i realize that i will soon miss this...it is unlike anything else, i worship here in chapel more than i worship in church on sunday..

So, this year's Easter seemed to have lost it amazing message of salvation until...

until i was driving home with Drew in my car and we were talking about our struggles, current and past, and then i was reminded of a question Pastor Rob (well, he was mine then, and i'll probably refer to him as that for a while) asked when he was going through the Purpose Driven Life Series at Ithaca...he asked this one question

"Where do you think you would be right now in life if you didn't have Christ?"

I said a lot of answers to that question and this one stands out the most...

"I would probably be dead. The thing that i lived for died when i was 14 and if you have nothing left to live for, why live?"

And at that moment in the car whether Drew knew it or not, my heart was worshiping the Christ that rose this Easter Morning...and i was very very thankful.

Happy Easter!!!