I was on the Grenz site the other day and i liked Robb's entry on what was Big in 05, so i decided to try to compose a list of my big 05 highlights..
Louise- I started working for louise back in 04 but the job definately carried over in 05 and i learned a lot about loving the unlovable. I was bruised emotionally and physically while working for her. It isn't everyday someone calls you a "SOB", a "good for nothing _____," threaten to throw you out the window, and hit with a phone or a broom, for just trying to help. Louise has altheimerzers and Praise the lord she was placed on better medication..i don't go through that stuff any more.
My experience with Louise has made me think of all the childrend and wives in this world who get beaten by husbands or parents ect...who actually have their whole mind in tact..it is a sad thing.
My DaD- it was also in the beginning of 05 when i found out my father's intentions on moving to Alaska...he was really serious about it and i was worried about my brother who was just about to graduate from highschool. Needless to say my father never made it to Alaska and lives with his girlfriend now by the north elementary..he is currently still job less.
Camp BaYouCa- Once again i worked a summer at Camp BaYouCa but this time it was as the Assistant Nurse and not Counselor, i felt honored and priveledged when Boss called me offering me the position. I had a rough summer to some degree many of my friendships were edgy for reasons i will keep disclosed because those reason are in the past and we are moving forward.
Moving in and out of the Ryerse's- After my dad decided to leave i needed a place to call home and Rob and Vanessa graciously opened their house up to me..so in May i moved into their place but by the end of August they were moving to Arkansas. It was a rough transition for me..still is..i'm going home in a few days and this will be the first time since i've gone to college that the Ryerse's will not be there. I won't be going over to their house except to maybe try to salvage some good memories.
Charles Carter- Yes, Charles Carter was a big highlight of 05...i developed a strong friendship with a rather attractive man that i never dreamed would have ever happened. I spent many weekends with Chuck and i spent a lot of gas money, and a lot of phone minutes on him. In the end Chuck and i remained just friends but he ironically started dating another girl named, SARAH...
It was well worth it though, Chuck taught me how to be myself. He accepted me just the way that i am and he had a certain way about him that made me feel as if i was the most important person in the world when he was with me. He treated me like a lady and we talked a lot. I had so much fun with Chuck...and while the chemistry and sparks only had a small amount of shining glory...the reflections it left will carry on.
Fashion Bug- Well, i started the second half of 05 working at Fashion Bug and i started the 1st half of 06 quitting the Bug...Retail is not for me, but i learned a little about fashion and got a great deal of new clothes.
The ditch- of course i wont' forget the weekend i went into the ditch and ended up at BaYouCa...God really used that moment to help me to get over deep losses in my personal life and to move forward.
The Warners- The Warners are a great 05 highlight, i developed deep relationships with Boss, Shirly, and Amy over the past year and it has really been great to have another family not so far away.
Failing and then Passing Classes- Academically, the second half of 05 was not good, i almost failed several of my classes and i manage to pull my grade up to a little over passing about a week before grades were due...i hope that 06 will be a better year academically.
Christmas- My christmas this year was one of the best that i've ever had thanks to the Warners and the lady's at Faith Baptist Church in NY.
It has definatelly been a tough year...but i've grown and learned a lot and i can't wait to see what 06 will bring me.....lets try to dream about what will happen to me in 06..make it fun, make it wild leave your thoughts.
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ok heres a kick in the pants. YOU need to focus girl...You're PRIORITY right now is School. Take it from me...after being OUT of school, and now 15 years later applying for Grad school..those grades STILL can haunt you. (mine was ok..but I could have done so much better). But..at the time I was working full time, commuting 2 1/2 hours a day..yada yada...
and It sounds Like through the year... GOD was faithful to you..meeting needs in unexpected ways...using "bad" situations to stretch you..making and healing wounds, and giving you strength and grace to "forget what is behind" and stretch toward the future.
Donna- I agree with you..i do need to focus..well, the semester is over..and i'm beginning a second.
I've seem to run into a routine of doing things..1st semester: really bad...2nd semester: really good.
The two tend to balance out but you're right i need to finish strong especially since i want to go to seminary someday.
And you are absolutely right, God has definately been faithful to me..even when i haven't deserved it.
I know it is hard to see when in the midst the value of each of the trials but God is refining you and growing you in ways that are infathomable...Yet I am so thankful for how you seek to have a heart of graciousness in spite of ditch experiences and what you may not realize is how many lives you have touched by just being you!!
I know you will look back on this year as "a milestone in redemptive history." It's been so hard for you, but God really brought you through. You will always be able to look back on that and be encouraged that no matter what happens, He will be there for you again.
And have you noticed how in your lowest points, God gave you some significant gifts of people to help you through.
He knows what you need.
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