Lost letters

I wrote this letter to a friend and then thought i would post it on this blogwith a few revisions because it describes where i am at this moment.

Do you ever write letters and then not give them to the people you wrote them for? I do, a lot actually. I recently just came across a letter i wrote to my friend Elizabeth on May 18, 2003. In the letter i talked about my relationship with my father and how we needed to work a few things out...It is hard for me to remember that time when i didn't want anything to do with my dad...and now..i can't imagine not talking to him lol, it is absolutely incredible.

I like to write, but sometimes i don't know what to write about so i write letters to people and in those letters i write everything that i wish that i could say to them but can't and then i just leave the letter in the envelope in a box or sometimes i don't even take it out of the notebook...i'm glad i don't give those letters to the people i write them for...some of them are just too personal for anybody but God and I. I'm also glad though because some day some of those letters i will give them out when the time is right and they will be an encouragement to those that i give them out too. I think for me letters are sometimes personal journal entries and then i store them and years later reflect on where God has taken me...and a lot of the time those relationships with that person i wrote it to has changed...and then i remember them..and i remember good things.

I'm incredibly thankful, God has been so gracious to me this past semester, he has been so gracious to me my entire life...

I"m looking forward to my last semester of College...i'm ready for it..i'm ready to embrace it, and enjoy it..

Entering this semester is so different than entering last semester. Entering last semester was just conflict after conflict even before the semester started..and this one...there is much peace on what has happened in this past year...I've grown a lot because of hard circumstances..at the time i would have taken something, anything else..but as Vanessa's says.."God knows what we need". A lesson i will re-learn over and over again.

Please pray that i will continue to embrace the person God has made me to be and to choose to glorify him through that person..I struggle with always comparing myself to others..but God didn't create me as anyone else..but me..I think then i must have something to put forth in HIS MINISTRY..

I'm ready, I don't think i've ever been so ready for what might come my way than i am at this moment..and while that may not last for more than just a minute..I think i'll stay here for just a few more seconds.