I am yours

I wanted to get in one more blog before i took off for the weekend.

I"ve had an intersting week with being sick and all but it has turned out to be all for my benefit as most interesting things do.

One thing that continually amazes me is how God uses his own people to teach one another great lessons about who he is. Everytime that God uses me in somebody elses life to reveal to that person a particular truth about himself makes me very humble. Who am I? It is a lot like that song..".Who am I that the LORD would care to know my name, would care to feel my hurt...I am but a flower quickly fading, here today and gone tomorrow, a waved tossed in the ocean, a favpor in the wind. Still you hear me when i'm calling. Lord you catch me when i'm falling and you told me who i am, I am yours, I am yours."

It is absolutely amazing what God does in a persons life when all they can do is commit themselves to HIM...to be used soley for his purpose in this world.

I will never forget when i was 17 years old and thought that God could no longer love me because of some stupid decisions i had made...and i remember sitting in the front row at Ithaca Baptist Church and heard Pastor Wood speak on forgiveness, God's unconditional love..and in those few moments..I bowed my head and i committed myself to serving God, to do as he willed and to seperate myself from but to not stop loving those in this world...and in those moments and i remember saying

"God, no matter what happens, no matter what i have to go through ...here i am...I am yours. Keep me to my promise."

The couple of months that followed that prayer were extremely difficult on sooo many levels...but eventually after God purged out of me all the junk that was inside of me he brought Jenny into my life to be a personal support and he brought Rob and Vanessa into my life to encourage my spirtiual growth.

Now, i think to myself...Who am I? I am about to embark on a new ministry at a wonderful church where i know a handful of people. I get to begin to do what for years others have done for me..and i think to myself...Who am I? The Lord has used me this week to help a friend see his goodness and glory and i think to myself, Who am I? As i've prayed for friends in ministry, for friends who are hurting, for friends who are struggling, and for friends who are doubting, I think to myself, Who am I?

Why God has chosen to create man in his image and to reveal himself through men in that image...makes me stand in awe..How is that a HOly perfect God can choose to light the way for my ever wandering heart...makes me think, Who am I?

"I am yours"