God still continues to amaze me in the way that he takes care of me and provides for my needs. Right now i am learning how to just take things one day at a time. I've had a very rough semester..and earlier i almost quit, seriously,I have been at my weakest point, spiritually, emotionally, and now physically...through it all though i've found one consistant theme..God is more than enough for me...and i need to cultivate my relationship more than worry about the rest of my life.
You know it is okay to miss the past and it is okay to miss BBC...but i'm realizing more and more that life has an incredible adventure waiting for us. God has a master plan that has yet to unfold and we have all the more reason to wait in anticipation of the future and of the future we have with our LORD. That is what i am learning as i am in my senior year...afraid of what tomorrow will bring or what it may not bring (like a boyfriend, husband).
Life holds so many opportunties escpecially for those of us in Christ because no matter what difficult circumstances life will bring we will always be able to find joy and peace.
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hmm, i hate to say it, (well--not really--or i wouldn't:) but it sounds like you are "fooling" yourself into thinking that you are okay with not having a boyfriend/husband. i could be totally wrong--but you still mention it in every post. are you really giving this to God and allowing yourself to see the amazing things you could do with OR without a man? i just hate to see your mind and heart taken up with that longing when it truly doesn't help anything at all to be thinking and wishing for it all the time. it won't bring him along any quicker. i love you, girl! Just want you to be happy!
Thanks for your honesty, the truth is i am lonely..and with so many insecure things in my life right now..i think i think about haveing "a man" so much because part of me says that having one would bring me some security.. but i know that it doesn't, nor it wont.
I think when i think about it..those are the times that i write it down..better to put it down than leave it in.
And yes i may trying to be able to "fool" myself into thinking a certain way..but the truth is i began to believe lies because i've listened and endulged in them so much...what better way to begin to believe what is true than listening in and endulging in that which is true.
God does have amazing things ahead for me..and i am really starting to believe it.. I'll try not to write about it so much anymore..because i'm doing myself a great wrong doing...because it isn't what i think about all the time.
I praise God for your friendship, and your honesty, and thanks for not letting me try to run away from myself but to face it head on and fight it.
i love ya!
OH Miss Sara. Having a man just multiplies the complexity of problems. Many times marriage is lonely..you argue, and can't understand why you married SUCH a DOLT. You are so busy working, you dont have time for a great sex life. You are so busy raising kids you forget to trim your nails. Attitude is everything, and one thing (I just posted at Liz's blog so im still in a reflective mode), I told myself I would do when my life fell apart is to LIVE IN THE MOMENT. It is God Honoring, much more fun, and takes a lot of the stress away.
You are EXACTLY where you are supposed to be, or you wouldn't be there. PDL: The people, places in your world right now are EXACTLY GOD APPOINTED. Don had great comfort in the fact that EVERYONE in our small group at the time was a DISIGN by God.
We are in the process of re-forming our small group..its the only thing keeping us afloat right now. I have to believe that it is God stuff. Mary and I are clinging to a hour and a half dinner once a week to keep moving forward. (note to self: visit more often DOH!!).
Boyfriends become Jerks and selfish, husbands can divorce you, jobs come and go...but Jesus, now somehow we have to Capture him..and believe in HIM , and reveal ourselves to HIM..because as the old hymn says, "Jesus...Never Fails...Jesus Never Fails..Heaven and Earth (and different people/relationships in them) may pass away...BUT JESUS never fails.
"God..please give me the relationship I need with Jesus, to beleive the words in the hymn." amen.
D.
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