Today is one of those day when i just sit by the window and i dream. I dream about what might happen as i age...I dream about an adventure and i wonder how many people's lives will i actually get to influence in a profound way. I wander if i will ever make a difference for Jesus Christ. Will others grow closer to the Lord as a result of His working in my life. Will the love that God has poured into my life overflow so much that others learn to love as a result of my life?
My biggest fear would to be to die and not have taught others how to love.
My heart breaks when i think of the lack of love going on in churches today. It seems like all we have time to focus on is methodology and who is doing what in the wrong way. I am realizing more and more that all churches have this problem not just the modern church...everything is a reaction to some christian hurting a brother or sister and that brother or sister then in returen growing bitter.
The question is do we ever really have the right to be bitter? What is the overflow of bitterness? Was Jesus bitter? or did he still love and encourage? It seems as though bitterness is caused by hurt and then bitterness causes hurt..
Maybe none of our churches have it right? Maybe we will never have it right and all we can do is strive to do what we think is right but how do we go about it without condeming those around us.
Who are we to judge our brothers and sisters in christ..and yet we do it all the time. We jusdge their actions, then we judge their motives and then we judge their hearts. We say we value each other in Christ but do we really? Why don't our actions speak out our words?
And for those of you who know me and know that i am talking about the (for the lack of a better word) conflict between the Postmodern and Modern church...I read things that Moderns say about the post moderns and my heart aches because i know people that the moderns are critizing and i know that there critism isn't entirely accurate.. Then i read things that the post moderns write about the moderns and my heart aches because again their critism isn't entirely accurate.
I understand both views...but it is as Rob emailed me...you can't judge a movement based on its extremities..
So why don't we stop judging? And start praying that God's work of Salvation in the lives of the Lost will prevail in both movements...that many would come to know a living hope and that they would come to know what love is.
If i die before i am old I hope that my tombstone says..."Here lies the body of a woman who knew how to Love."
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I need to clarify something...NOT EVERYTHING is a reaction to a brother or sister in christ getting hurt and then growing bitter...Many reactions though are a result of someone getting hurt but not all those people grow bitter...i just thought i should clarify that for those of you who will actually read this...I Hope you understand what i am trying to say
well, my brain and emotions are too fried to try to pick through everything you said. but, i just want you to know i love you and i'm so glad that you realize how important it is that our lives are based on the love of Jesus.
i'm wishing you could come over for hot chocolate! :)
Hey, Baby. Don't worry. You have made a difference. You are God's instrument and in your great humility (you really are one of the most delightfully humble Christians I know...don't get a fat head though: ) He uses you all the times in ways you don't even know. It would probably be nice if you did know right now, because then you would feel more confident of the fact that you are doing the right things, but then again...maybe you just need me to tell you so.
Sometimes love is tough. Sometimes loves says sharp things to snap us to attention. It's not unloving to say, "Hey, this isn't working!" I know what you mean, but "faithful are the wounds of a friend."
Now tell me to get off my backside and get SOMETHING DONE! (in the most loving way possible)
looking at your bio...what is: For Women Only ?
For Women Only...is a book about the things about men that women should know..some things are obvious and then others make you go .."hmmm? I didn't know that.."
I highly recommend it.
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