About me!

I've been thinking a lot about the fact that i am a very selective person. I tend to just let only those that i want to really see "me" see me. So, i've decided to start breaking some of my own barriers because i have realized that i have way to many up. So here I go.

I am actually a very funny person. I have a creative "out of this world" imagination and the things and ideas that i come up with make people look at me and go "what?" I am also a very serious person...i love talking about how God is growing me and what he is teaching me and i will share that even with a complete stranger. I am also a very open person...if you ask me a personal question..i will answer it honestly and openly.

However, i do have barriers in the following areas. I place up barriers in my relationships with my friends of the opposite sex. I do this because I didn't have barriers at one point in time and i got crushed (literally) my world had fallen a part because i gave my heart away to someone who was not as committed to me as i was to him. It turned all out for the best but the process of learning what and wasn't acceptable to share with someone was a difficult one. I think more women need to learn how to cultivate meaningful open relationships with the opposite sex as well as guard there own emotional heart. Women are emotional and communicational and we need to learn to guard are own hearts.

So knowing this i share very little about my hurts in life to my guy friends...I only share the things that i have worked through. I share very little about my relationships with my family, i keep details to a minimum and i know when i've said enough. I won't go into details about anything unless, again, i've worked through it. And i choose not to read into a guy's actions. Let's face it, women will be women, we will read into things that is just how we are, but we can also choose not to read into things or we can choose to read into it and let it go. One major lesson that i have learned when it comes to men is "If he likes you, he will tell you." So, now i won't assume that any guy likes me unless he tells me that he likes me.

I also have barriers when it comes to my relationships with other girls. I've been hurt a lot by my female peers in the past and so i won't fully let a female friend into my life until i spend enough time with her and figuring out what she is like. I watch her and observe how she treats others, whether or not she gossip, if she really does love the Lord and if she is trustworthy.

Other things about myself: I love to laugh, i want to live for the day. I'm relationship oriented and i often get task oriented people in trouble because i get them to set aside their tasks in order to hang out with me. I am responisble and i know how to get things in on time. I hate crying but i'm not afraid to cry. I am very honest with God..I'm not afraid to tell God how i am feeling..i'm not afraid to yell at him because i know that if i overstep the boundaries in the midst of my emotions God himself finds a way to rebuke me. I love praying but don't do it enough. I have a desire to meet the needs of others but i am often too proud to ask for someone to meet my needs. I am stubborn yet at times i give up too easily. I think i am just one big contradicition and i don't think that i will ever be able to figure out myself.

All of this to say..i hope this gives my friends a little more insight about me..who i am..what i am about...i'm sure there will be more to come on all of this.

Leave your comments if i've left out something about my personality let me know what it is..i'm interested to know what others think of me, good or bad.